If you feel something’s very wrong with the world, you are not alone.
I was brought up in an atheistic culture. No god, no Jesus Christ. Only Sir Charles Darwin and his infamous thesis On the Origin of Species. Survival of the fittest. In addition, there were philosophers of materialism, and of course the Science. Science as an opposite to Religion.
Among all this absurdity, accepting it as the means of fitting in seemed the only solution, and fit I tried for many years. Only to see this system of belief crush one day when realization that the God exists came down as a shock wave.
When the dust settled, sense of not belonging came in. After all, one has to believe in something, right? If the atheism system failed, then the opposite should be true. Religion must the safe heaven for a lonely soul.
Serving one true God in the hope of salvation. Putting this God above all other gods. The rules were tough but what did you expect, an easy life? Trying to fit in, again and again, facing the old absurdity wear a new mask. Hitting the wall of limitations. Thou Shalt Not…
When the Religion system crushed too, it went easier. With each subsequent dissolution of belief, more freedom was coming in. When looking back I realized the best moments of my life were those when belief systems crushed leaving what seemed like vacuum behind – but maybe it wasn’t a vacuum? Maybe it was a not yet recognized simple joy of being?
Why not live in this state forever? What drives us to adopt belief systems instead?
I know the day will come when our mind breaks free from limitations of structured beliefs. That day is when we finally awaken from the Matrix.
Thanks
Rohanna